Thursday, December 31, 2009

Dear Mr.JC

Dad...
please give me a new spirit to face this new year... i don't know why, but i'm not interest to start this new year... i need You...,to manage my life, my heart, and my mind... i want to be a better person than yesterday... i want to be more grateful for everything that You has given to me... i don't want to start this new year with tears..., like what i'm doing now... there's so much pain... and i can't endure it anymore... no parents... i just can't do this anymore... i can't hold on... i think nobody care of me... nobody need me... they leave me...
Dad, i know You always here with me... i'm sure about that... i have nothing here, except You...
Thank You for 2009... thank you because You gave me someone like Yosua Rendi... he changed me a lot...
Dad, all i need is You and Rendi... just You and him... please, don't leave me alone, Dad...
i can't live without Your unconditional love...

This year, i will trying as best as i can to give my best for You... i hope i can do anything that can make You proud, so does Rendi... i hope we can be more love You, can feel Your Sovereignty, can get closer to You, can make You happy....
i wish this year i can get closer with my family, too... no hard feeling between us...
give me strength,Dad... i want to know You deeper...
i wish when i feel alone and cry every night, You can remember me Your greatest love...
i wish i can be what You want me to be...
even the world has changed, but i believe that Your love never change...
i just need to trust in You, and let You handle my life, everything will be better...

please bless my family, my relationship with Rendi...
i hope Rendi will be the last man in my life...
i hope i can love him more and more...
i hope i can be the best wife for him...
i hope with this relationship, we can know how deep is Your love to us...
i hope we always figuring in Your Holy Name in our relationship...
teach us to love each other, trust each other...

Please stay with me, Dad...and i will fear nothing...
love You so much, Dad...

_your naughty sinful indulgent daughter ^^

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