Dear Mr.JC

Dad...
please give me a new spirit to face this new year... i don't know why, but i'm not interest to start this new year... i need You...,to manage my life, my heart, and my mind... i want to be a better person than yesterday... i want to be more grateful for everything that You has given to me... i don't want to start this new year with tears..., like what i'm doing now... there's so much pain... and i can't endure it anymore... no parents... i just can't do this anymore... i can't hold on... i think nobody care of me... nobody need me... they leave me...
Dad, i know You always here with me... i'm sure about that... i have nothing here, except You...
Thank You for 2009... thank you because You gave me someone like Yosua Rendi... he changed me a lot...
Dad, all i need is You and Rendi... just You and him... please, don't leave me alone, Dad...
i can't live without Your unconditional love...

This year, i will trying as best as i can to give my best for You... i hope i can do anything that can make You proud, so does Rendi... i hope we can be more love You, can feel Your Sovereignty, can get closer to You, can make You happy....
i wish this year i can get closer with my family, too... no hard feeling between us...
give me strength,Dad... i want to know You deeper...
i wish when i feel alone and cry every night, You can remember me Your greatest love...
i wish i can be what You want me to be...
even the world has changed, but i believe that Your love never change...
i just need to trust in You, and let You handle my life, everything will be better...

please bless my family, my relationship with Rendi...
i hope Rendi will be the last man in my life...
i hope i can love him more and more...
i hope i can be the best wife for him...
i hope with this relationship, we can know how deep is Your love to us...
i hope we always figuring in Your Holy Name in our relationship...
teach us to love each other, trust each other...

Please stay with me, Dad...and i will fear nothing...
love You so much, Dad...

_your naughty sinful indulgent daughter ^^

New Year...

happy new year yak ...
moga d taon ni qta jd bs lbh baik dari tahun sblum ny...
moga kasih Tuhan n smangat dr Dia slalu mnyertai qta...
amiiiiinnn...
tp taon baru bgi g ga gt special...
hmmm....
sama aj kyk sblm"ny...
TT
beteeeeeee....

2nd

hoaaaammm .
jem brp ni ?
gw bru bngun jem sgini ..
dasarr kebo .
hahaha ..
hmm , maklum lah , semalem kan ada acra ampe pagi ..
jdi wjar lah klo bgun jem sgini .

kpala msi berat dah ..
mata jga msi minta merem nie .
><

tpi gk blh di biasa'in trlalu siang ah bgun'a .
gk bae .
hehehe ..

hmmm, puji Tuhan, jadwal musik gw dah kluar lgi ..
akhir'a stelah bberapa lama, gw bsa mlayani lgi .
Tuhan , Kuduskan rendi spy layak bwt melayani .
kasih rendi kkuatan, ksabaran, ketaatan, hati hamba dlm melayani.
amin .

beb, ak gk nganggur lgi .
dah ad krjaan ..
hehehe ...
kmu jgn sdih mulu npa beb ?
klo sdih mulu, muka bebekk'a kluar tuh .
=p

ak cma mo psen, stiap kputusan yg kmu ambil, hrus mnta bimbingan Tuhan dulu ..
jgn cma nnya ak, tpi jga nnya Dy .
soal'a kan Dy lbih ngenal kmu jauh di bnding ak ..
Ok, cintaaa ?
^^

gk blh sdih terus, kan ad ak .
kmu tenang aj .
ak siap kuq ad bwt kmu klo km lgi ad msalah.
klo km lgi sdih.
bahkan klo km lgi skit ..
ak siap nmenin kmu .
yaa, wlpun gk bsa nmenin'a di rmh kmu trus .
tpi ak jnji, mmpi kmu yg wktu ntu gk akn prnh jdi knyataan ..
kmu pegang iaa kata" ak ..
ak syank kmu.
=)

uuuhhh....

d akhir taon, tetep aj msi ada masalah...
TT
bingung bgt gw...
ga tau msti ngapain n msti ngambil lgkh ap buat nyambut taon baru...
kykny cm gw yg hopeless...
gw bnr" sadar klo dlm hdup ntu byk bgt plihan ny...
n ga jarang jg klo plihan ny itu ga enak smua...
pgn bgt bisa ga usah milih...
krn klo milih 1, pasti yg laen msti d korbanin...
smua plihan ga enak mnrut gw...
kcuali klo lu d suru milih mo bli rumah ato apartment...
hehehehe... =p
byk prtimbangan yg msti d pkirin...
gmn mauny Tuhan, gmn mauny klrga gw, gmn mauny rendi, gmn mauny gw...
hmmm...
tp kyk ny mauny gw ntu ga usah d prtimbangin, dah...
gw pgn bgt bs milih jalan d mana Tuhan, klrga, n rendi bs sng smua ny...
plihan yg tepat...
tp kyk ny plihan itu ga ada...
smuany msti milih salah 1...
hr ni gw blm senyum ato ktwa 1x pun...
ga bs...
yg ad cm snyum yg kliatan bgt maksa...
TT
gw bingung bgt...

gw bersyukur msi pny rendi...
cm dy yg mau ngedengerin tiap mslah gw...
bntuin ngasih solusi (wlpn kdg" gw ga snggup ngjalanin solusi yg dy ksi)...
**maap yak syankk...kdg ak minta saran am kmu, tp stlh dpet saran dr kmu, malah ga ak lkuin...kmu tau kan ak psti pnya prtimbangan lg...kdg ak sk klamaan mkir, tp ga jarang jg lho ak ga pake mkir dlu...
hehehehehhe...

BTW, yg d blg rendi klo gw ntu kalem tuh salah...
org dy aj sk marah" krn mulut gw ga bs d jaga katany...
hehehehe...

kangen bgt sm rendi...
bntar lg dah sklh, si...
males bgt dah sklh lgi...
yg ga males ntu cm pas ktmu rendi ny doank...
yg laen ny males bgt, dah...
pling ntar bobo mulu d klas krjaan ny...
hehehehehe...

1st

Hmmm..
ni x prtama gw nulis blog .
sbener'na seh dah pgen pnya blog sndiri dri dlu .
tpi mlz buat'na ..
hehehe ..
untung cwe gw rjin .
^^-
( luv u beb )
jdi ni blog di pke be2 dah ...
ak blm tdur nuh beb .
mo nyoba blog baru .
hahaha ..
jgn tdur mlm" yak .
abiz nulis blog ini jga ak tdur kuq .

kmu yg sbar yak beb ..
jgn cpet nyerah klo ad msalah .

hmm ,, ju"r , gw bangga pnya cwe kya dy .
kya Priscillia Christiani .
kalem, bae, nurut, syank bgt am gw .

=p

sbar yak beb .
smua indah klo dah waktu'na ..

hufh~
ngantukk ..
tdur ah =.=

rendi's request

pc >>
Hehehehhe...
malah jadi buat blog juga, dah...
padahal kmaren malem baru ajah bilang k JA klo males bkin blog...
tp ni karna special request dari pacar tercinta (yosua rendi tanuwidjaya) makanya gw bikin juga...
hmmm...
memang suzah nolak klo permintaan dari rendi...
^^
sayang bgt sih soalnya...
pengen ngelakuin apa aj yg dia minta...

ni blog, bkal d urus b2...
gw am rendi...
tp kykny bakal lbih sering gw yg nulis...
karna rendi bilang dia males nulis...
moga aja ni blog jalan...
ga kayak buku doa kemaren yg berenti di tngah jalan...
hehehehe...


_love you,rendi...^^